I see you.
I know you’re getting frustrated with yourself for crying at night. You want a peaceful night without the pain. But it’s ok to cry. It’s ok and completely normal to grieve the loss of something that cannot come back. Don’t be ashamed.
I promise that you’re healing.
It doesn’t come overnight. You may feel like you’re in the same rut day in and day out, but you’re making progress. I promise you that it won’t feel like it at first and that’ll suck… but it’s happening.
Cry because it’s good for you. Cry and eat all the chocolate you can find. Then go buy more. That’s ok.
But here’s what you can’t do.
You can’t force them to come back. You can’t beg. You can’t forget your worth.
You have to focus on your own healing. Figure out how you will move forward. You don’t need to know right away, either. You can spend some time being lost. You’re allowed to be lost. If you were never lost, how can you be found?