Oh my GOSH we didn’t think we’d be here, did we?
I’ve missed my little corner of the internet for the last few months. I have to admit though, not sharing everything in my life with the general public was a really relaxing feeling that I had never let myself experience before. And I knew I needed that when I left.
But recently, as things have started to fall into place for me, I found myself drifting back in this direction. After a lot of thought, I decided I would make my grand return and see how it goes. Maybe a do-over is just what I need?
When I first became a single mother, I wasn’t sure what was in the cards for me anymore. I went from having my whole life planned, to not even being sure about what the end of the day would bring. As you could probably imagine, I was struggling to find my footing. But the one thing to keep me together was my sweet daughter, Hai. Being a mom means that it isn’t about you anymore. It’s about your child and you have to do everything you can for them. You always have to show up for them.
Speaking of my girl, she’s almost 8 months old (HOW?!) and she’s turned into such a smiley sweetheart. She loves to eat and hold hands, both of which take up most of our day. As she’s gotten older, obviously our routines have changed a bit. Now there’s a lot less naps and a lot more random walks around the house and clapping at the walls (yes, this happens often). We’ve been working on crawling, but she isn’t much of a fan. I keep saying she’ll be walking before she crawls. She’s been very demanding that she be held all the time, so maybe this all stems from her not wanting to grow up. At least we’d be on the same page about that. Stay little forever!
Career wise, I’m finally putting the pieces together and things are looking up. I chose to get into real estate recently and I reenrolled in college in May. Once I’m finished with my courses, I schedule the state exam, pay a ton of fees, and leave the rest up to God. I’ve already spoken to an amazing real estate company that I will likely be working through once I’m licensed, and I am so wildly excited to get started. If all goes well, I’d love to share some more on the process in the future!
I think that every bad thing I’ve gone through this year has helped me grow and I truly wouldn’t be as happy and thriving as I am now if was in the same position I was in even 6 months ago. I had to take some time to learn who I am rather than who I forced myself to be or was expected to be. As terrible as it sounds, I think everyone needs to experience their biggest heartbreak and/or setback in order to get to where they need to be. It’s like I forced the wrong puzzle piece in and I had to drop everything on the ground to break them apart and start over. The queen of metaphors, back at it again.
I hope to share a lot more about my new life with everyone once I get settled back in. As Troy and Gabriella once said, “this could be the start of something new.”