An Update

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Hi guys and happy Saint Patrick’s Day! It’s been a month since I decided to take a break from blogging. At the time, my mind was getting pulled in a million different directions and I couldn’t find time to sit down and write. My motivation was gone and my sanity was hanging on by a thread. Although I’m not ready to come back as strong as I was before, I thought I would take some time to give an update on everything that has gone on since I announced my break.

Family

The day after I decided to take a break, I went back to my hometown for the weekend to be with my family. I got to go to a high school basketball game which was fun since I haven’t had a chance to get to any CSU games this year. The next week, my boyfriend and I took a trip to our hometown yet again for another basketball game for my sister’s senior night ceremony. For those of you who are unaware, senior night is when the seniors who participate in sports that season are recognized for their participation, grades, and goals for the future. It meant a lot to get to be there for her second senior night.

Midterms

Luckily for me, my midterm week was kind to me. I only had two exams for the week in Bio and Arabic History. My other classes either assigned papers or just used our current grade as our midterm grade. My assignments were super hard and took up almost every minute of my day, but I was just happy that I didn’t have to study a million things.

I passed all my midterms but I recognize that I could have done even better. I guess I’ll just have to use it as motivation for the remainder of the semester. Although there’s a lot of work to be done in order to pull this off, I still have the goal of making it on the dean’s list. I’ve just come to terms with the small chance of that happening. It has nothing to do with my intelligence, but more to do with the number of assignments and exams I am given weekly. I know I’ve said this a lot, but there’s not much downtime between one assignment and another.  That’s pretty common in college and people still manage to pull off getting on the dean’s list somehow, so props to those people! I just know that my brain needs lots of breaks to feel healthy.

Spring Break & Moving Out

As I’m writing this, it’s the last day of spring break. It’s hard to believe it’s already over. It went by in the blink of an eye for me. I didn’t go on any big vacation or do anything special. I just wanted to relax and enjoy my apartment since I’ll be moving out in just a few months. I really took for granted the opportunity to live by myself in a new area. There’s so much I wish I would have done sooner, but there’s no going back to change that so I have to make the best of what I have while I still have it. I’ve spent a lot more time in the backyard of the complex overlooking the lake and studying/reading- even when it’s a bit chilly outside. The view is something I may not get living somewhere else, so I’m trying to appreciate it. I move out in May, although the date has not been set. I just know that I have to be out by May 17. It seemed like such a long time away when I first moved in and somehow the days just crept right up on me. As much as I’ve absolutely hated this place and all it’s breaking amenities, I’m sure I’ll shed a few tears when I’m carrying out the last of my things. It was my first apartment and first time living on my own. It quickly became my home and it sucks having to go.

Finally…

Like I said earlier, I’m not quite ready to get back into writing consistently but I wanted to give everybody an update. I know it’s nothing special but it’s something. I’m still working on myself every day and it’s much harder than some people may think. I’ve faced (and continue to face) so many personal situations that have gotten in the way of my happiness, confidence, and mental health. The battle does not end, no matter how defeated I tend to feel. One day I hope to update everyone on what has been going on behind closed doors, but for now, I want to keep some things private.

I’ll see you guys back here soon!

Love you all.

 

 

 

 

 

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Q & A

I’ve been promising a Q & A post for a few months now and I’ve been putting it off. I have no excuse for it. I’m just super lazy. But I’m finally here to answer your questions!

Before we begin, I would like to thank everybody who submitted questions. You guys had some really good ones! However, if I were to answer all of them, I’d be here all day. So I chose some of my favorites to answer. Brace yourselves. Get your popcorn. Here we go.

Q. Where have you been?

A. School has taken up most of my time lately. I’ve been a very busy girl between school and maintaining what itty bitty social life I have left. And those are my top priorities, trumping my site. I love writing, but it is just a hobby for me. If (and when) my site becomes a steady source of income, I will put more work into keeping it regularly updated. Until then, I’ll post whenever I find time and inspiration.

Q. What happened to your Spotify playlist?

A. It’s still up! Just like this site, I took a bit of a break from it. But I’m going to update it soon and add my morning favorites.

Q. What is the most important thing that you have learned while living on your own?

A.  I’m not a kid anymore. I can’t rely on my parents to do the dishes, laundry, etc. It’s all me. And it’s taught me to be more grateful for everything they have done for me. There are a lot of hard days when I feel too drained to even clean a fork. And now I understand how they felt whenever I took advantage of their housekeeping.

Q. If you had a caution label, what would it say?

A. “Caution: heavily indecisive.”

Q. Do you have any pets?

A. Back at home I have a cat. He’s a real pain in the butt. Where I’m living now, I have three fish- two goldfish and a cichlid. My two goldfish (Brutus and J.C.) live together in the fishbowl in my kitchen, while Usain (my cichlid) lives in my living room.

Q. What do you want to do once you graduate?

A. This is a good question… I don’t know what I want to do yet. I just changed my major yet again and it’s made me feel more comfortable in the direction I’m heading in. However, I’m still not 100% sure where it will take me. I’ve considered some different options such as being a public relations specialist or social media coordinator. But those seem so heavenly that they’re nearly impossible. So until I find something that really interests me, I’m going to keep an open mind.

Q. What is your favorite thing to snack on while studying?

A. My favorite thing to snack on period is Ben & Jerry’s Chocolate Fudge Brownie ice cream. I’ve always got some in my freezer!

Q. Would you recommend CSU to a graduating senior interested in film?

A. Well, before I changed my major, I was a film major. It’s a wonderful place to be. Everyone is so diverse and see things in so many different ways that it feels like being a kid in a candy shop whenever you get to hear all these different perspectives. The film department offers you so many great opportunities, too. Just recently I met a film producer from Cleveland, Tyler Davidson, as he was promoting his new film Galveston. He came to my class and answered everyone’s questions about the film industry. There’s also opportunities for studying actors and filmmakers to connect through the database of actors. If you find yourself really interested (and I mean really interested) in film, this school would be a great choice.

Q. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

A. Hopefully working somewhere that I am very happy and comfortable at. I’d love to be married with a family and a pup, living somewhere quiet and cozy all year round.

Q. Who is the last person you called?

A. My mom.

Q. Have you made any friends in school that you want to keep in your life after graduation?

A. Of course! I have made quite a few friends that I really connect with. It was hard making good friends in the small town I grew up in, but at my college there is so much diversity that it’s easy to find people that are like me. I love all the friends I’ve made here at CSU, and I really hope they all stay in my life.

Q. Where do you get your clothes?

A. I love Burlington, Marshall’s, and Plato’s Closet a whole bunch. They’re my favorite places to visit because there’s always really nice clothes for decent prices. But there’s also times when I feel the urge to shop, but don’t have the money for it. That’s when I go to Romwe and Shein. They’re super affordable, and have so many pieces to choose from so I end up spending hours online looking through everything!