Fall Engagement Pictures

I’m super excited to share our first session of engagement photos!

We planned to take pictures the weekend before last because it was supposed to be sunny and relatively warm, but it ended up being cloudy and 45 degrees, so that was a fun little twist. We were frozen solid and spent any chance we could get warming up in the car between locations.

We were lucky enough to have my dad as our photographer so we were able to comfortably talk about things we liked and didn’t like. We also got to take as much time as we wanted in different locations. There were really no limitations! He had some cool ideas and so did we, so we spent a lot of time bouncing ideas off each other.

I really love our photos because I see so much more than the picture. I remember all the fun moments we had between taking them, which were all super special to me.

I can’t wait to take more pictures and share them all with you all! Most of all, I can’t wait to show our children these pictures one day so they can make fun of us!

Meet My Boyfriend

As I mentioned when I first came back, a lot has happened over my spicy COVID summer. One of those things being meeting my boyfriend and my better half, Colt. And ever since we met, we’ve been inseparable. It’s pretty cool.

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I was hesitant on writing about our relationship just yet because of what usually happens whenever I share too much of my personal life too soon (hint: it goes to shit), but I think that now more than ever, we have to be over the moon about every victory. And Colt is definitely one of my biggest victories.

Colt is the sweetest man I have ever met, let alone dated. He cares so much for other people and is always willing to go out of his way to make sure others have what they need. I was immediately shocked (and impressed) by how selfless this man is. It was one of the first things that got me hooked.

He was the first man to actually take me out on a first date, open every door for me, and treat me with unwavering respect. I’m amazed that someone like him exists. I don’t believe that I deserve him in the slightest, but I won’t complain.

Something extra special about our relationship is that it is my first long distance relationship. I mean, it’s not super long distance, but it’s still a whole new ball game for me. We’re nearly four hours apart, which can be daunting at times, but we’ve learned to make the best of it. Plus that saying, “distance makes the heart grow fonder,” has proven itself to be very, very true.

I know that Colt and I will be going on several adventures together, so you’ll be hearing a lot about him in the future. Be ready!

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Here’s What Will Happen When You Fall in Love with Someone Who Can’t Love You

Short answer? It hurts like hell.

Long answer?

Things won’t feel right for a while. It’ll feel like you’re going through the motions. You’ll be checking your phone to see that they haven’t called or texted you. You’ll feel like you’re missing something in your day.

You’ll catch yourself thinking about them when you shouldn’t be. Any little thing will remind you of them- the shirt you wore that one time when they came over, the spot on the ceiling you looked at while they held you in their arms, the balled-up gum wrapper sitting on your bedside table. Everything becomes a trigger of a memory. You’ll know that you can’t keep thinking about them, but it’s out of your control.

You’ll wish you could talk to them. Maybe you can. Maybe they’ve said you can text them any time, but you know deep down that they said that just to be polite. Communicating is not something they really care about. If they did, they would’ve been honest with you from the start.

You’ll keep the photos for a while. Probably because you don’t want to let go. Or maybe because you’ve started to feel better but seeing their face washes away the flood gates and you feel all the feelings again. Their face will live in your phone until the feelings are such a distant memory that you forget they’re even there.

You’ll catch yourself falling even more. You know it won’t work, but that won’t stop you from thinking about how happy you two would be if. 

You’ll sleep more. Being awake leads to overthinking. Any time you open your eyes, you’ll shut them again and force yourself to go back to sleep. You won’t want to be awake. You may even feel a pain in your stomach when you think about taking on the day.

You’ll look at things differently. That quote from some philosopher whose name you can’t pronounce might start to have a heavier meaning to you. It might get you thinking. The sad parts of cheesy Hallmark movies might hit too close to home.

You’ll decide to make a change. Changes don’t just come out of thin air. You have to work for them. You have to make them what you want them to be. You’ll see that the position you are in is no longer serving you and want to change that.

You’ll eventually feel ok again. All this pain subsides in due time. I can’t tell you that it’ll be quick or easy. I can just tell you it’ll be right. If you hurt for months, that’s what is right for your path. Days? Hours? Same thing. You’ll start to feel normal and maybe even better than before. You’ll go out more, experience more, love more. You’ll be more you. You’ll love yourself how you wished they would have loved you.

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Would I Couple-Up With Love Island USA?

Popular UK dating reality show, Love Island, has come to the states! It follows the journey of singles finding love and trying to win over America’s hearts in order to win the grand prize of $100,000.

I wasn’t sure at first if I would be interested in watching Love Island, but I gave it a chance and was immediately hooked. Now I have the app on my phone to vote in real time and I’ve even gotten Zach to watch it with me before. I’ve also got my feelings about each contestant (other than the two new girls that will be introduced properly tonight.

If you haven’t watched the show yet, this next part will make absolutely no sense to you so maybe skip over it.

I’ve got huge heart eyes for Elizabeth and Zac. If they ever split up I will be really sad. They obviously have an undoubtable connection since nobody on the island have yet to split them up. When Elizabeth went on her date with Cormac, she was really honest with him about how she felt about Zac.

I wasn’t a fan of Mike and I’m honestly happy he was the first to be dropped off the island. I got weird vibes from him from the beginning and it kept growing as it went on. Sometimes in his confessionals I felt like he came across as more human, but it still didn’t cut it for me.

Cashel and Kyra seem a little snakey to me. Cashel and Caro had a cute thing going the first night and then Kyra just weaseled her way in between it before it even started. I get that’s how to show works, but the girls seemed to have a friendship thing going on from the start and for Kyra not to talk to Caro first was shady.

I liked Caro at first. She seemed like she genuinely wanted to find love. But now she comes across as a little sneaky. Like she’s just trying to find a guy to win the money or something. Maybe I’m wrong but that’s how I feel so far. She also has this Cardi B persona that feels so exaggerated. If that’s really how she is, then all power to her. But if she’s putting up this sassy Cardi B front to gain interest from the men or even America, she needs to turn it down.

Alana and Yamen… ok. I guess they’re ok together but I really think Alana is taking their coupling much more seriously than Yamen and he’s going to break her heart when he tries exploring his options. I guess we’ll see what happens.

Weston and Mallory aren’t really hitting the spot for me. I thought it was an interesting couple at first and I saw things slowly go down hill. I mean, they’ve literally friendzoned each other already. I think he’ll get a little more interested in the new girls coming tonight… maybe Katrina?

Alexandra and Dylan are growing on me but I don’t feel as good about them as I do Elizabeth and Zac yet. I’m rooting for them though. I think it would be a cute couple if they stick around, you know?

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Personally, I can’t imagine being in that situation. I would hate getting to know someone and knowing that any of your “friends” could just take him away and nothing is wrong about it because it’s the point of the game. I love the idea as a tv show though. I can see why it was so popular in the UK. As much as I like how quickly we get updates and answers by having the show on every weeknight, I feel like after a while it’ll become overkill. I know I’ll spend every night watching the episodes so I’m sure I’ll get exhausted.

If you like the Bachelor/Bachelorette or Big Brother, this is like a hybrid of the two. I’ve really liked it so far and I already know who I want to win the whole thing (*cough cough* Elizabeth and Zac).

If you haven’t already, give this show a watch tonight at 8/7c. If Love Island was a person, I’d be coupled up! Let me know what you think!

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